Badlake Hill and My Dreams

 BAND

So its been a while since I've updated this, since which Neon Fire 'broke up' and got 2 new guitarists in and continued under the name "Badlake Hill", the choice to basically kick Sam out was not one I initiated, it came out of nowhere though If I wanted to stay in a band i wasnt really given much of a choice other than to accept it.

So along with Ryan, Matt and Myself; Dan and Tom are in now, I love them both. Great musicians, great people. We're a different band now I suppose. More serious. We have our heads on straight and are booking up gigs and getting alot of interest from good places. I'm happy with where we're at, couldn't ask for more!

Badlake Hill!


 DREAMS

So..my Dreams. Something I don't think i've ever spoken to anyone about. I have the same dream once a fortnight, sometimes three nights in a row, they can be very random in their occurance. I'm back on the playing fields at my old school in Yateley, we're all about 16 years old in appearance but other than that we are who we are now at the age of 23, memories, achievements (which for me is very little..hense the dream...) etc...

We'll all be playing football (Myself, Chris Gardner, Adam Wareham, Tom White, John Varndell, Adam Newbury, Adam Jeremy, Alex Castle, Mike Unwin and usually a few more but these are the most frequent) largely people from my classes at Yateley School and Westfields and in the dream I know its the last time I will get to do this, like my last day before I leave everything behind (again) it will be so innocent, just a bunch of friends playing football but I just cant help but feel nothing but sadness, not just in the dream but I actually feel it, and still do for hours after waking up, like just wishing I could be there again, at that age. Like I've lost that part of my life, lost the friends I used to have, lost the chances I could've had. It's when I have these dreams that I realise I miss them all loads, I feel like I've been left behind, like they wouldn't even remember me, I'm nothing.

I miss Chris the most, we were best friends and even as I write this I continue to feel so overwhelmingly sad, partly because I dont feel like I ever said a real goodbye, and in the time since; we have lost contact, he's probably forgotten about me, doing great things and having a great life while I still have no idea what I want from my life. In the dream that I woke up from less than half an hour ago I felt like he was ignoring me, at the end I pulled him aside from the others and asked him a question, we walked off and he told me I had wasted my life, that I should have gone to University, we laughed about something (If I recall it was because we saw a half eaten cheeseburger left ontop of a wall in someones garden and we thought it was wasteful). I woke up shortly after this, Lauren was asleep next to me. I had to get up and write this down somehow, the dreams keep haunting me...

I hate these dreams....

Christmas and Stuff

First thing of note, played our third gig last night on Christmas Eve at the Lansdowne. Got paid £250, surprised how quickly this is all taking off. The gig was pretty good, had a good reception to songs like Fire, Buck Rogers and naturally Merry Christmas was quite relevant.

Got a Semi-Acoustic guitar for Christmas, gonna be playing that alot i reckon. Loads of deodorant...hopefully not a hint. Also Lauren got me some custom 'Effingsweet' drumsticks which was really sweet, I love her. Spent 9 hours, so most of Christmas, at work today and the entire time I just wanted to be with her, no amount of Christmas presents could ever compare to the gift I was given on September 24th when I met her for the first time.

I'm such a soppy bastard...

So..I dont know how to delete posts...

Neon Fire!

Since I had practise tonight and this band is currently one of the biggest things in my life I figured it was appropriate to make a post about the band.

So..we're Neon Fire, small town band in Devon, we currently only play local gigs, infact we've only played 2 but we attracted a good hundred people on both occasions, already been refered to as a 'Local Sensation', shout-outs on Exeter FM and booked our third (and well paid!) gig on Christmas Eve next week at the towns biggest pub (Even if it is small by larger towns standards), Im happy with where we're at.

Members...

 Ryan is my partner in Team Rhythm Section, we pretty much have the same opinions about music and agree on most things. He has worn that Skeleton Suit to both of gigs and wears a weird Russian Hat to practise, funny shit.

 Sam is the biggest pain in my ass but also like a brother. I like to think he'd stick up for me whenever such an occasion may arrive, so for the time being I'll have to excuse the 6am phonecalls to tell me its snowing and midday texts to tell me had sex this morning...

This isn't one of the more generic pictures of Matt which is probably why I like it, we get on better when he's goofing around. Wish he'd start turning up for practise on Sundays though...


So yeah that's the current group, though may add another new person on here in coming weeks. Really happy with things, and looking forward to the future.

Introduction Into Insanity

Soooo...the first post is always going to be the most awkward, seemingly the ramblings of someone so pretentious that they believe that others are interested to read about their lives on the internet. Well maybe someone will find this amusing, even if it is me in ten years time reading this and laughing at how sheltered and naive I was or merely just for nostalgia.

Partly I decided to start this blog as a sort of diary since I hate writing (worst handwriting ever, should've been a doctor) but would like to be able to keep a record of what i've wasted my life doing.

So a brief summary of my life..moved to Devon, England when i was 13, at the time of typing this I am 22, so lived here for 9 years. Don't remember alot of life before I moved here except that I was a bit chavy, pretended to like Drum'n'bass, wore too many sports makes and religiously loved football ( A game which is completely destroyed by ASBO's and soulless football players these days). When I moved here I was put in a tutor group predominantly made up of societies alternatives; rockers, skateboarders, BMX'ers, hippies, jokers and the like. Pretty much led me into a life of skateboarding and rock music.

Went to college at 16, it sucked. Started playing music at 19, probably one of the best decisions I ever made. 3 years on and im in a band called Neon Fire, pretty happy with this and hope it goes somewhere enjoyable, more on this later! Also I have the most wonderful girlfriend, not too sure what I'd do without her, love can pretty much find you when you least expect it, and I will testify to that for the rest of my life. Also just moved house which sucks, actually making this was one of the first things I did after getting the Internet here....Addicted to social networking much...?